The person to whom you most connect to … is no more.
I felt- “Adrift at sea. ”
Water was my battleground and sea creatures my enemy. All my emotional, logical and mental circuits were fried and my best friend “Denial” moved in with me .
I denied myself the emotion of my grief. I talked of everything but HER.
My sub -conscious being knew- she was no longer there but the conscious me ran away from the truth .
I spoke of the right things to do, now that she was gone, but never thought what was right for her. That was to celebrate the full life she lead and her ideology.
The long days which turned into weeks of denial.
So my journey ….. I lost my mother .. to gain an insight into myself.
Peace and love.